Tonight.

As always, I have GREAT timing. I should have set aside a dose (Even my last), for tonight, but nooooo....I just love to do things the hard way. I am having a guy over tonight - we've known each other for years and have seen seeing each other randomly since last year. Just last week, we started going out and spending time together 2-3x's a week ----- something I've wanted for a long time.  I hope I am handling things OK. I feel OK now. Maybe I should sleep more? I need to eat. I barely ate yesterday. I still find my mind wandering...want to keep 'searching' for pills I hid. I Think I found them all. *sigh*. I can do this. Plus, I need to keep in mind...I get a whole new bottle on 11/11. Maybe I'll take THOSE responsibily! Doubtful tho..I never have control...